1st u/s results shows...

Yup~ it's twins. I am in total shock. We got to see the heartbeats but she didn't tell us how fast it was going. We go back thursday for another ultra sound and at that point they'll tell us the heartbeat.

I am not going to stay on the computer as i am sick as a dog. So i'll post more later or tomorrow.

Runs off to puke...

6 weeks 1 day

Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Those little hands and feet- still webbed like paddles- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!), and blood is starting to circulate.

The nausea has definitely set in. I haven't thrown up yet but i am constantly feeling like crap and can't eat. I am basically living on crackers & water.

First u/s is tomorrow if the weather stays put. We are supposed to get a ton of snow and the RE is over an hour away. But dh says we'll be there no matter what. After all we have waited over 2wks since we got our bfp. It's time to see a heartbeat!

I am going to ask them for zofran. I'm not sure how sick you have to be to be able to take it but i can't not eat or i'll be starving the baby and myself. I am constantly hungry but the moment i start eating it just feels like it's going to come right back up. Ugh...this is the only part of this whole thing that i've been dreading. But, at least for the moment i'm not puking every 10 mins like my sister was.

I'll post tomorrow night when we get home and let you know how the u/s went. So nervous!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YIPEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The PIO shot is done and guess what?? It didn't even hurt!!! It was kind of hard to pull it back and the oil is hard to get through the needle so i really had to press on it and none of it hurt!!! Oh i feel soooo good about doing that damn shot! You have no idea. I did it an hour early because my nerves were giving me nausea so i just wanted to get it over with.

For those of you who don't know what a PIO needle looks like...

Tonights PIO shot

OMG i have to do it by myself. Dh has to work. I am so nervous to do it as it hurts sometimes. I've been watching Youtube videos of girls doing it themselves like it's no biggie so i'm really hoping it won't be.

Nausea still off and on. When i eat a little (even though that's the last thing I feel like doing) it goes away. Still not sleeping that well although this morning i actually fell back to sleep around 5:30 and woke up at 6:30.

Today i am 5wks 4 days pregnant. Seems so weird to be saying that. Wed i will be 6wks and few days later is my first u/s. I have actually been pretty patient waiting for this u/s. Everyone that knows is asking how many i think are in there and truthfully it doesn't matter to me as long as I see a healthy heartbeat or more. That's why i waited. It doesn't matter how many are in there I just want healthy and i wouldn't see much at a 5wk u/s. One thing i have become during this whole infertility journey is patient!!

Feeling great!

Yesterday i had a really good day. I wasn't sick and i was barely tired until the afternoon. I know alot of symptoms start at the 6wk mark but for now i feel good. My sister (hi Ginge) started getting morning sickness at 5wks with her 2nd one and she was so bad that she was hospitalized for a few weeks. She couldn't keep anything down. She had hyperemisis really bad. Poor thing. Her first pregnancy she was also pretty sick and she has a boy and a girl so i'm not sure the sex of the baby mattered. I'm just glad to be feeling good right now. I am taking one day a time.

People at work are suspecting something. I'm not how but one of them have already congratulated me!!! I denied it of course without actually saying it. I really hope no one asks me. I'm not ready to tell anyone.

This day next week at 3pm we'll find out if this is actually a viable pregnancy. We should see a heartbeat but will prob not hear it. We will also find out how many are in there. I'm just praying for a healthy heartbeat (or 2).

Well i suppose i better get up and go to work. Ugh....Have a good day ladies!!

5 weeks and beta #3

Baby's now the size of an appleseed!
Your embryo, which doesn't look like much more than a tadpole right now, is actually starting to form major organs (heart, kidney, liver, stomach) and systems (nervous, circulatory, digestive). Baby's presence in your uterus triggers production of HCG (the hormone detected by pregnancy tests), which triggers the production of other hormones like estrogen and progesterone, which triggers all those great symptoms you've probably been noticing!

Beta was 7155!!! I asked nurse Greta what it should be and she said around 4000 is what they would be looking for. Progesterone is 33.69. YAY!!!! Greta told me that all the nurses there are so excited and can't wait to see me next week. They are all fighting to do the u/s to see how many babies are in there. I think they agreed to all be in the room if it was ok with me which of course it is. They have all seen my vag so it really doesn't matter at this point. I just hope it's good news. As far as my #'s are looks like we'll be fine. ((praying))

Symptoms - well today i was nauseous alot. I think it may have been nerves though as i am feeling much better now. I hear nerves or stress can trigger morning sickness. I'm very tired today as well but i was awake at 3am because i was so nervous about today. I couldn't eat that much today which was a bummer to me as i like to get all my vitamins in as right now is the most important.

Other than that..not much else to report. We are extremely happy right now and feel very blessed to be pregnant. We have never even gotten a positive pregnancy test so we are pleased with how things are progressing.

Now, for all of you who voted for twins...you might be right. It's freaking me out a bit but due to my age 36 I think i'll be happy enough. Will just have to figure out our finances better. It'll be ramon noodles for for the next few years!!!

Beta #3 is today..

I'm so nervous. I've been up from 3 oclock on. I just don't feel pregnant. I still have the same symptoms but i thought i'd at least feel like i was. This is scaring me.

Oh 12:00 i hope you come quick. I looked it up on betabase and it said 26 days past ovualation (which i would think that's after FET as well) the beta should be around 5000 something.

Anyone got any extra prayers today please send them my way. Thanks!!!

Cramping today

There must be alot going on in there today. I have felt pretty blah all day. The cramps are like AF cramps but at times kind of feel burny. I'm hoping this is my uterus stretching and making room. I keep checking the TP everytime i go to the bathroom.

Ugh this is so nerve wrecking. I'll be very happy to have something to do this week (work)AND i'm so glad that we are having a beta test this wed as well. Just to make sure all is ok. I think the beta should be around the 3000's by then.

Class tomorrow...hope the day goes by fast!!

Fortune cookie

I forgot to post that my fortune cookie on Friday said "Three is a crowd, add one more to thin it out" both of us were like holy shit!! What does that mean?? 4 babies? lol....the next day it hit me..maybe it means me + Dh plus 2!!!

I guess we'll find out soon enough. It's fun to think about how many babies are in there. But it's also very scary.

My SIL did my PIO shot tonight. I was so happy she did it because i just can't imagine doing this shot all by myself!

MIL made me chicken soup. She thinks it'll help make sure this pregnancy is going to be a healthy one. Thanks MIL!!!

My nephew Hunter is adorable. He is so easy. Hoping my child is as easy.

Dh is reading up on the emotions i am going through. Good thing because my mood swings fly like the wind. Sorry DH!!!

Fatigue has set in. But i'm still ok. Not sleeping well at all. Having wierd dreams and waking up at 5am. Boobs still hurt. Still hungry but that has subsided some i think. But it could be because i'm eating a little more.

I will weigh myself tomorrow and start keeping track of weight gain. Can't wait until Wed to make sure my beta has gone up and up and up. Plus the progesterone check.

Well it's 9:30ish. Time for bed. Good night everyone!!

Couples Retreat

So last night we watched Couples Retreat and let me tell you i wasn't prepared for the infertility story. I actually laughed out loud when they said they were stressed and thinking about a divorce after 12 mos of trying!!! I was like try 2 years of trying naturally then 2 years of treatments!!! It was a funny movie though. I also liked the Hangover. That was funny.

I'm so bored right now. I lightly cleaned the house and dh is doing the grocery shopping. I'm so used to doing so much that i'm just bored doing nothing now. Well not nothing but not as much as i usually do.

I googled about bunch of websites about pregnancy and it turns out our baby is only the size of poppyseed right now. So weird. At 6wks it looks like a dolphin not a tadpole like everyone says. I saw a website that shows them in 3d. It was so cool.

Can't wait for the u/s but i wanted to wait until we had a good chance of seeing a heartbeat. I will be 6wks 2days according to when the embryo's were implanted.

Sumer - when did you get dicharged to your OB?? Just curious as to how many u/s i have to have up in Albany. Thanks!!

Beta #2 is

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!828!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It more than doubled. I can't believe i am pregnant this just seems so surreal. I just wish i could be less scared and enjoy this moment better. Nurse Greta said don't be surprised if there is more than 1 in there but the number is good for one as well. Twins...i just feel it.

As far as how i feel the eating thing is really annoying. I'm hungry all the time and when i eat i only eat a certain amount before feeling weird then i can't eat anymore then 10 mins later i'm starving again. I'm hungry but i don't really know what i feel like or what's going to taste good. I am super picky all of a sudden. I'm tired today as well but i was up at 4:30am this morning. Sleeping has been hard. I hope to sleep better tonight. I have lots of cramping and every once in a while i feel a bit faint. Boobs are still sore but not really bad.

Other than that i feel fine. Nurse Greta says symptoms don't usually start hitting people until 6-7 wks. My poor sister got sick at 5wks and was hospitalized and it was very serious. She couldn't keep anything down. My other sister got sick too but not as bad. So i'm wondering where i will fit in.

My u/s is the 26th. They wanted me to come in on the 17th but i'll only be 5wks and although i'll find out how many are in there i really want to wait it out until i see/hear a heartbeat. So 2wks from now i'll be a little over 6wks so i am for sure to see it all. I will however go for another beta & prog check on the 17th just to check to make sure all is still going well.

So i'm going to go lay down with my little doggie until DH gets home with my dinner which i have yet to decide on.

Write more this weekend. Hope all is well with you ladies!!

ps. hi Sisters!!!! Welcome to my blog. I will try to keep it updated so you are in the loop :)

pps. I added a pole on the top right side of my blog. Lets see if you are right! Notice i didn't put triplets on there..that scares me too much :)

Today I go for Beta #2

Wow it still feels weird to be saying that.

Thanks for all of the congrats. This just seems so unreal. I can't get used to the fact that i'm actually pregnant!!

Well gotta get up and get ready to go. I'll post later when i find out.

Have a good day ladies!!!

9dpt = Beta day

Look what i woke up to this morning??



So i got my ass in the car and drove to Quest to get my beta. I came home and peed on a FRER and a dollar store stick and they both came up 2 lines right away.

My 2 nurses that i love with all my heart (Greta & Justine) both called me (i can't believe i'm typing this) and my beta is 308!!!

I go back on Friday for a repeat beta. I just hope it's a good one!

I always love to hear about peoples symptoms or what they did different that cycle so here goes:

Symptoms:
about 4-5dpt i got this sharp poking pain in my right ovary (as mentioned in an earlier post) it was all day at times very painful.
My boobs started to hurt 2 days ago but only underneath and the sides and more so when i wore my bra. They don't look any different
Last night i had a very weird dream and didn't sleep well.
Yesterday nothing tasted right and today carrots taste like perfume
I am very hungry
I'm very easy irritated, my back hurts and i'm crampy. All signs of AF but this time i am very blessed.

Things i did different:
I took crinone,lovenox, PIO and estrace
Day of transfer i did acupuncture before and after
Day after transfer i started eating pineapple for 5 days (only the core)
I drank more water
I took a whole week off work so i wasn't stressed out at all
Stayed off the bump so i didn't see any BFP's that would stress me out and make me feel pressured. (of course i checked up on a few nesties that i care alot about and saw some very good news from them as well. You know who you are :)

I think that's it...I just took it really easy and ate food that were good for me.

Looks like i'll be taking lovenox for 26 weeks. This does suck but i'll do anything to keep this pregnancy.

I'm in total shock right now. Just starting to be happy for ourselves. can't wait until DH comes home. He knows about it but i haven't been able to see him to kiss on him yet.

I'll post later & tell you how we told our parents. They are the only ones other than you ladies of course that will know until friday.

Thank you for all of your kind words of support etc. I has meant the world to me!!!

8dpt FET

So...the boobs are still sore, my back not as sore or achy and things are tasting wierd to me. Boobs don't hurt anymore than yesterday. They are just tender on the sides but more so when i have my bra on. I have been crampy as well. I'm tired tonight but not exhausted. I'm also very easily irritated. Much like when AF is coming but hoping it's from the progesterone.

Last nights PIO shot killed my ass. I've been in pain all day. i have been camped out on my couch for like an hour on the heating pad and it hasn't really helped. Ugh...i will be glad when i can give them up but i just hope it's not for a while. Even though they suck.

Lovenox shots still sting like a biotch but I have learned how to give them to myself with minimal bruising. Another shot i will be happy to give up but not just yet.

So even though i have these symptoms i am still not very hopeful that it worked. I just don't see myself peeing on a stick and seeing a + come up. I'm not if i'll ever see that.

Beta is supposed to be tomorrow but there is a storm coming so i'm sure i'll not get there so i have it also scheduled for thursday. Maybe tomorrow i'll pee on a stick if AF doesn't show. I know the PIO is supposed to keep your AF at bay but i know of alot of women who have gotten AF even while on it. I have a new box of FRER's that i'm hesitant to open because i'll be getting a beta. If i'm not pregnant i'll just use them on our "on a break and don't give a crap anymore and will only test if AF is late" cycles.

So until tomorrow....

7dp FET

And...my back is killing me!! WTF?!?!?!?!?! Seems like AF is just about to show but the damn PIO shots are prob stopping the inevitable.

I am still trying to be hopeful as my boobs starting hurting today for the first time???? This is weird but again..could be the PIO. I've never been on it so i can't tell what is a new or not. All i know is my boobs would hurt during the whole time i took prometrium up until 2 days before AF was due and then they'd stop. Seems like the opposite is happening this time lol...oh i have to laugh or i'd just break down and cry. Is this really my life? Will i ever get a BFP?

We are supposed to have a storm this wed (beta day) so it may be pushed to thursday. One more day of torture. One more day of taking these damn shots that i absolutely despise!! I figured it would work this month because i don't want to do the shots. I always seem to get what i don't want. Boo....

Darn back...hate that it's hurting right now. Googled it and of course there are women that get back pains during the 2ww and still get their bfp so do i still hold out hope? YES!!!! Of course. Because i'm stupid. Why would this be a bfp? It feels like every other month where i've gotten a BFN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you tell i'm a bit cranky too? Really hope thats the meds as well. Feck my life..

Abdominal pain etc

Yesterday i had this painful poking pain in my right ovary (at least i think that's where it was) it was most of the day. I woke up today and it had somewhat disappeared. It's been there a few times that's it.

I have cramps now & some back pain. I feel like AF is right around the corner. I am a moody bitch too. All signs are pointing to this not working.

I have had no side effects of the progesterone (PIO & Crinone)..no sore boobs, no really cramping until yesterday and today and hopefully the moodiness.

On my last Ivf today was the day i started spotting but (knock on wood) that hasn't happened yet. I'm assuming the PIO is stopping that from happening though.

I just would really like to make it to beta and now know if this worked or not. It just seems like it hasn't.

Beta is wednesday..i'll post when i get it. Please keep the good vibes coming our way. This is our last chance until we can scrape up the money for more cycles.

Thanks!!

FET done!

Just wanted to give a quick update. I'm feeling great other than some cramping but that's normal and i'm not fretting over every little cramp this time. All 3 embies made it & all 3 were transferred.

Beta is next week. This whole week i've been off and haven't even thought about the blood test or the FET for that matter! I feel like i'm sick and i've been home all week.

PIO shots are going ok. Occassionally they hurt like hell but that's the name of the game i guess.

So only about a week to go and we'll find out. Please send me sticky baby vibes everyone. doubt is creeping in a bit but overall i still feel pretty positive.