Disappointed...

My meds were supposed to come today but they didn't as they haven't been approved yet and then I find out that I have to take progesterone suppositories YUCK!!! It's bad enough that this whole battle to get pregnant has ended with doing injectables..something i just never saw myself doing..i'm all about "things happen or don't happen for a reason" and now i feel like i'm tempting fate. My mother is totally against doing anything like this so i can't even tell her what's going on. Just having a blah day today...and I have bad cramps i think I am ovulating..better get bd'ing again tonight..but I'm just sooooo tired..this process is starting to take it's toll..

MEDS ARE ORDERED!!!!

Ok so I guess we are going to do injectables with IUI. My RE said w/cycle 1 with injects it'll be a 40% chance, 2nd cycle 60%, 3rd cycle 80% chance of it being successful. He told me that clomid wouldn't help me. Not good for unexplained chicks like myself. My 2nd FSH is 9.2 I'm so happy about that. So I am going on follistim,Ovidrel and IUI. My DH SC was $65mil, Motility 70%, Morph normal. So his #'s are down a little but RE isn't concerned as his #'s are diff everytime. So I am sooooooo excited for sept. I have a feeling that this is really going to happen now. I have had 3 people tell me they feel it's going to happen soon. Maybe it'll happen this month, my break cycle. That would be quite funny. It's after a lap and alot of people think you have more success after a lap. SO we'll see.....

So pissed!!

WTF!!! My DH had his SA & b/w a week ago and the f'n nurse hasn't called me or responded to my email. I am so pissed. She is like this with every test. She'd better not try this crap when I am waiting for my beta. I'll be on the phone so quick with her she better believe it. Plus the dr hasn't responded to my email 2 days ago either about doing IUI w/Clomid twice before moving onto injectables. WTF!!!! I feel like calling there and complaining but I'm afraid if I do they'll be mean and not care if I get pg at all. I like my dr but the nurse is so fake everytime i'm in there cuz she's a bitch on the phone. I asked her what b/w came back on me and she said oh honey I don't have time for all that..!!!in a very snippy tone. Then she changed her tude after I said fine just tell me when they do come in. AND of course she never called me. I had to wait until i went in for an appt.

Ahh..can you tell I'm getting my AF soon....lol

RE appt last Monday

Went for a post-op appt after lap and to discuss with the dr our next move. He said that due to my FSH being on the high side (9.8) we should have another one done before ordering the injectables. I asked him how many cycles of IUI w/inj he will do before he says 'it's not working we need to do IVF'...he said 3 or 4. I thought about it and emailed him yesterday asking him if we should exhaust the IUI option first by doing clomid, HCG and IUI like 2 times then move onto injectables. So I am just waiting to hear from him what he thinks. I have a feeling he'll say let's wait to see what your next FSH is and then we'll talk.....I am so conflicted. IVF is not an option for us. I refuse to put myself into debt to have a child. It's going to be hard enough once we do get preg to afford the child let alone pay back the loans...this sucks...it really sucks.

On a diff note I can't feel too badly for myself as I friend of mine is battling cancer and I just found out that she is being taken off chemo as it's making her sick. I am trying to stay positive for her but now I feel like she has nothing helping her battle this cancer and it's fast growing. I am thanking my lucky stars at this point that I am healthy.

Thanks for reading if you are....

Feel Like crap today

I am just in a mood....a bad one. My back is hurting, my head is hurting and I'm just really pissy... I feel like AF is on the way (explains yesterday too). I heard that after you've had a lap AF could come earlier. Great!!

I should be happy..that means we can move onto the next step~~ Yippeeeeee now I feel better...somewhat...

last of the tests done!

DH went for his b/w and gave his sample for yet another SA (#6) I am hoping that his count is still good. In the past it's been on the lower end but not terribly low. At least the dr's aren't concerned. But we had a fight this morning because everytime he has to do this he get's all pissy. I had just had it. I was in the shower and screaming at the top of my lungs " I can't believe you are making such a big deal out of this..by now you should be a veteran at doing it!! what's the difference from when you do it any other time other than this time you have to make sure you get it in a cup!! Look at all I have done!! Took clomid, vag u/s 3x for a week, all the dr's appts, an HSG that made me sick to my stomach, a laparoscopy and that's not the end of it for me!! I will now have to go on injectables and give myself needles for however long of time, then i have to get a cathater in my vag to put your boys in there and then if that works I'll have to carry it for 9 mos and then push it through my vag!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I was so upset & he still didn't get it. He kept telling me that's not why he was upset but couldn't come up with any other reason why he was. Later in the day i explained to one of my friends what had happened and she said "well he's prob embarrassed" and that set me off again!! I was like WTF. Embarrassed?? I have a dr's head a foot away from my vag at least 3 x a month. My dignity is long gone. I was sooo pissed. Well thanks for letting me vent..WHEW I feel better....

feeling more like myself today...

I am feeling back to normal thank god. Other than I can't poop for some reason (think it was the meds) but hopefully that'll happen soon. So glad we had the lap done. Can't wait for my post-op appt on the 11th to see when we can move ahead with the IUI. I'm kind of caught up on whether or not to do a natural cycle with IUI or do it with meds. I guess we'll find out when I go on the 11th. Hope this week goes fast!!