day 5

5dpt.. Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells

Sooooo today was different. I went to the bathroom around 1:30ish and when i wiped there was some pinkish brown. It scared me so much. I wiped again and there was a little bit more. Now i am in a full blown panic. I had been having AF like cramps like an hour before that. I called dh and he said he'd call the nurse for me. When he called me back he told me it's completely normal. Could be the progesterone irritating my cervix OR it could be implantation bleeding!!! I was like really???? Of course i googled it and yes it could be the right time for it. I am 5dp5dt. I went to the bathroom about an hour later and there was barely anything there. The cramps were still there though.

Came home and dh is all excited. I so hope he is not disappointed. I can't help but feel down though. I know, i should try to be positive but you see i have AF like cramps still and my back is sore. If my back wasn't sore i'd have some hope but it is. This is my classic sign that AF should be here in about a week. It just sucks that i can't be happy about the bleeding...my luck it's prob the damn progesterone suppositories.

Dh and i may test early but we haven't decided. If we do it'll be closer to end of week. I can't bare to see a negative result.