so a friend of mine thinks she is pg from an affair she had while ovulating. This friend of mine steals my thunder ALL the time. She works on the 4th floor and I am on the 3rd. I got engaged on the same weekend she found out she was pg and by the time I got to work that monday she was on my floor telling everyone her good news. I was so pissed. She couldn't wait until after i told mine to tell people she doesn't even work with. Then she had a total diva moment by crying because one of the women passed away and wouldn't get to see her baby. So I quietly went to my desk and didn't tell anyone about my good news. Someone saw my ring and made a big deal out of it. The luster was gone at that point. So now, 4 yrs later her marriage is falling apart and she slept with a guy she used to date about a week ago and it so happened to be ovulation time and he made a deposit. She knows that we have been trying and that we did an iui on the 26th and we'll be finding out if we are pg on the 10th. So everytime I say something about me being pg she chimes in and has to say something about her possibly being pg. She's 41 and probably has a 5% chance of being pg but my luck she'll turn out pg and i won't be. Today she had to go home to puke. I think it was a lie but I can't be sure. I told her I doubt it's frm being pg as she probably hasn't even had implantation yet. It was so uncomfortable. I wanted to scream "STOP DOING THIS TO ME...CAN'T YOU SEE THE PAIN IN MY FACE!!! She finds out on the 12th. I am telling not her if I am pg as I don't want to tell anyone for a little while. I want to at least hear the heartbeat before even telling our family.
I also haven't really felt pg this week. Last week i kept saying I'M PG because that's what I wanted and really felt like this is it. This week not so much. I think it's my way of guarding myself. There are signs everywhere. I went shopping today and usually my DH calls me at least 3 times while I'm out. I didn't hear from him all day. BUT as soon as I went looking for Bellybars in the baby aisle at target he called. So I think that's a sign too. Plus I have been having twinges in my stomach...BUT the major thing is I am short tempered and very moody. All signs of AF. So i am putting my guard up to have disappointment. Sucks cuz if I am the first u/s would be day before xmas and what a wonderful christmas present. I bought dh a book kind of like what to expect when your expecting for daddies. I want him to feel like he is just as big a part of this as I am. Plus it'll be good to have him educated about the whole thing.
This 2ww is the hardest yet... god if you can hear me please grant my wish of becoming a mommy to be this month and giving me a H&H 9mos. Amen.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment