12dpiui - NEGATIVE

So i tested this am against my better judgement. It was negative. But i haven't given up hope yet. Today I felt like maybe it's still a possibility that this cycle worked. There is the tinyiest bit of me that have given up hope. 2 of my friends bought me a fertility necklace that is so beautiful. I couldn't believe it. I really hope it brings me luck. I have terrible back pain today and I'm coughing alot so i think on top of feeling down I am now getting a cold. We are going to test again tomorrow night so I have time to absorb the news whether it's good or bad before work the next day. My beta is on wed. I am hoping I get a bfp. i have had some heart burn the past 2 days. Not sure what's up with that. If I get a bfp i may not post it for awhile due to some co-workers. I don't want them to know for a while. Oh god please give me my bfp tomorrow night and a H&H 9mos. After just about 3 years trying and a year of IF treatments I feel that it's my time...amen