So nervous

For my test results tomorrow. I hope they come in tomorrow & i don't have to wait anymore. It will kill me if they tell me i will never be able to carry a baby. It will just crush me to no end. I was watching adoption story on TLC and she had the killer cells where her body kept killing the embryo. I thought this was something that can be fixed? So now i'm more nervous than ever.

To make matters worse my AF is due this coming sat and it's my SIL's christening & dh has to stand up as godfather. I have to go today and buy a gift for that and bday gifts for his other 2 nephews that had birthdays 3wks ago...just couldn't find it in me to go buy kids toys. But as usual i am forced to deal with it today and go buy shit that i don't want to be around. I just wish it wasn't in our face everyday.

Hopefully tomorrow will bring us some good news but some answers. Gotta go shower & head out to the damn mall..... so not in the mood.