Monday should be the day!

I get all my test results back. At least i hope i do. I really need to know if something underlying is wrong with me or dh.

Coworkers ever growing pregnant belly was really getting to me on thursday. The outfit she was wearing really showed it off and everytime i looked at her i looked at her belly. Wishing that was me. Ugh...hate that feeling. I've been good with talking to her but i feel like when i give her an inch she takes a mile. I asked her the other day when her next dr's appt was. A simple answer that took her 15 mins to answer as she told me it was this past friday and then she went into going shopping for maternity clothes and that she has to drink virgin daquiri's on her vacation. Yes she has it all....2 kids w/one on the way, going to FL (disney) for her 30th bday, still smoking and eating like shit but has great u/s and dr's appts. Yes she has all the luck. I would NEVER want something wrong with the baby so don't get me wrong...it just seems like no matter what she does she still comes out on top. It annoys me to no end that she eats like shit & SMOKES!! And i eat right, don't smoke etc...and i can't catch a break. WTF WTF WTF?? At least i have a whole week of sheer no pregnant coworker bliss. I can go back into my life of denial....

So...i think waiting for these tests is worse than the 2ww. These tests could give us the answer we have been seeking for the past 3yrs. I really hope nothing unfixable is wrong. That will just crush me.