That means i'll be turning 36 in a few days....my moms bday...thanksgiving AND starting ivf!!!!!! Now i'm getting excited. I am being more positive these days. I'm taking all kinds of vitamins & listening to my meditation cds. Those meditation cds are helping me alot. They are helping me relax and clear my mind which is exactly what i need.
Ahhhhh turning 36 is bittersweet for me. Of course celebrating my life is the sweet part but knowing that i'm still not pregnant or a mother at 36 is so sad to me. I know people are having babies later in life now so when i'm going to school functions at least there will be other old moms there. lol.
Love thanksgiving...i'll be stimming or finishing up stimming around that time. I'm hoping the ER is the weekend after thanksgiving so i don't have to take time of work. I'm hoping i have alot of follicles. I really want some to freeze. That's important to me. That way i know i have a few more shots at this. Every baby story that i see on tv that has ivf'rs on there are having multiples so it's scaring the crap out me. We of course are hoping for one baby at a time. If we get preg with twins ok..i can handle that..triplets? Wow...just wow...My MIL called out of the blue the other night. She's a little pshyic so this scared me...she said to my dh tell your wife that if she gets preg with more than one that she'll take a leave of absense from work to help her..even on bedrest...just don't reduce any of them. I was like why??? Why did she even think about that? so now we are both scared. We see twins things everywhere...not so much triplet things but always twins. I've always said we'll have twins. Even way before i knew we'd have problems getting pregnant. Twins run in both of our families and it's our generation.
If we had twins i'd love to have fraternal twins...a boy & a girl. That way we'd be done having to worry about this anymore. Dh has always wanted 3 babies but he'd be happy if this happened (happy with anything at this point) If we have identical twin girls or boys we'll try for another sex on the next one. Or we'll just be done,but at least that choice is ours and not natures!!
Ok going to go clean now and watch birth stories....
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Happy Birthday today! I have the same feelings as you towards the month of November. So much going on and it's great to see things moving forward.
::raises wine glass and makes toast:
Here's to November and the success it may bring ;-)
YEAH!!! I'm with you as well. I hope we get our bfps soon!! Thanks for the bday wishes :)
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