Bad day today

It started with my acupuncture appt. The needles F'n hurt going in and plus they had the wrong person (same first name) and thought i was doing my ET. She seemed annoyed. Then i was late for my RE appt but they didn't seem to mind but i was stressed about it so needless to say the acupuncture was a waste of time.

I get into the exam room and the needle to get my blood F'n hurt like a biotch!! Then nurse Sheila comes in and i ask her about the LH and P4 and she is very concerned. She checked my lining..not post ovulation...no fluid to indicate ovulation. I have 6-7 measurable follies. This also depressed me. I know I know..quality over quantity. She checked with the head nurse Justine & she said she noticed it (WTF why not tell me then)and that todays bloodwork will be the tell all. If the levels are higher and the E2 decreases then we will have to cancel the cycle. I was devastated. I left there in a daze. I got outside and called dh and just cried. Why out of all the cycles i've had does this cycle have to be the one with the f'd up numbers. I've never had bad #'s. It just isn't fair. Most of the ride home i was in a daze. Then I decided to find the good in this. It wasn't meant to be, I won't have to worry about it over the holidays and there would be no risk in having a bfn and having it ruin the holidays for me and dh, things happen for a reason etc.... so i started to feel better and turned my music back on about 10 mins from my house.

When i got home of course today of all days the results weren't in yet...I checked the portal again and again and after the last time it wasn't there 2 secs later the phone rang and it was Sheila. She said my results looked fine!! Again WTF?? My E2 went from 300 to 759, P4 went from 4.3 to 5.6 and the LH decreased to 15.63. So i'm not sure what the hell happened. I am to continue on until Monday and then we'll know for sure. It still may be cancelled at this point. I am to hope for the best...yeah easier said than done....