Cyst is still there

It's smaller but it's still there. My RE said she'll check the e2 levels and if they are around 60 then we can start. I was excited about this...BUT i got the phone call that my e2 is still elevated so I have to stay on bcp for another week!!!! I was disappointed but whatever. She didn't leave the #. I always want this but this time i decided not to care. She told me to call back to make the appt. So I did. i figured i'd ask if someone picked up but i got the voicemail message so I left a msg that i'll see them next friday at 8am. I was so proud of myself for saying F it and care. It's not going to change anything so why worry about it. When I got back to my desk I called dh and he was worried that we couldn't do it at all this month. I think when I go back it'll be gone and i can start. So of course i looked up to see when i might start if that's the case and it looks like it may be mothers day or at least around that day!!! So i'm hoping that's a good sign. I'm not putting much into it because I don't want to get my hopes up based on that. I do feel like this cycle will be the one though. Don't know why...just do.