No hope

Argghhhhh I don't feel like this cycle worked. Other than being bitchy for the last week which is early for me as i am usually bitchy the week before my AF which is coming up this week. But I have a cold that is just lingering and one minute i feel horrible and the next i'm fine. It just hits me like a ton of bricks. The wheatgrass must be trying to keep it at bay but I think it's prolonging it...plus i just don't feel like it worked. I have been going through this crap for almost 3 yrs and I would hope the moment it happened I would know it and I feel nothing.

My dr's appt is on Friday with the new RE and I am not excited about it for 1) I don't want to do the shots again 2) I don't want to have to take the time of work 3) I don't want the false hope of thinking that if i'm getting help it's going to work 4) I've done 3 and not one of them have worked. 5) the dreaded 2ww 6) seeing one line instead of 2 7) being violated 4 x's a month 8) having everyone ask you "did it work'? ....arghhh I could keep going on and on. I will always find a reason to not want to do this but I have to try a few more times and then I can go on with my life cuz at least I know I did all i could....