Another follie check scheduled

So apparently my LH is now within normal limits at 6.98. They are not concerned with how it's been flucuating but they are mildly concerned about my Prog which is a 7.3. They said as long as my lining and E2 were good which they are (E2 is now 1640)we can continue on. I do have a lead follie so i'm thinking that this is possibly why my P4 is elevated. I go back on wed for another check and HOPEFULLY have the ER on friday. I've never stimmed this long. Tonight will be night 10!!

Right now i have 6-7 follies all around 14 -16 in size. I'm hoping there are some more on wed but i'm ok with this number as long as they are all great quality. I hope my numbers cooperate!!

until then....

So nervous about tomorrows appt

I have had terrible cramps in both ovaries but mainly my right (has the most follies)and horrible back aches. I know i overdid it today decorating the house and carrying large heavy boxes from the basement. It's so weird. This cycle is so different and I can't believe this as I was on the same meds as the iui's and didn't feel this way. I have been nauseous of and on as well. Weird!

Anyway, tomorrow i will find out if i'm triggering or being cancelled. I really hope i am not cancelled. Please body cooperate but of course nature has a way of working things out even if it's not what i want. There are alot of good things about it being cancelled but it is going to suck if it is. Yes i am trying to think positively.

Please ladies if you have any free time say a little prayer for me :)
Thanks!

Bad day today

It started with my acupuncture appt. The needles F'n hurt going in and plus they had the wrong person (same first name) and thought i was doing my ET. She seemed annoyed. Then i was late for my RE appt but they didn't seem to mind but i was stressed about it so needless to say the acupuncture was a waste of time.

I get into the exam room and the needle to get my blood F'n hurt like a biotch!! Then nurse Sheila comes in and i ask her about the LH and P4 and she is very concerned. She checked my lining..not post ovulation...no fluid to indicate ovulation. I have 6-7 measurable follies. This also depressed me. I know I know..quality over quantity. She checked with the head nurse Justine & she said she noticed it (WTF why not tell me then)and that todays bloodwork will be the tell all. If the levels are higher and the E2 decreases then we will have to cancel the cycle. I was devastated. I left there in a daze. I got outside and called dh and just cried. Why out of all the cycles i've had does this cycle have to be the one with the f'd up numbers. I've never had bad #'s. It just isn't fair. Most of the ride home i was in a daze. Then I decided to find the good in this. It wasn't meant to be, I won't have to worry about it over the holidays and there would be no risk in having a bfn and having it ruin the holidays for me and dh, things happen for a reason etc.... so i started to feel better and turned my music back on about 10 mins from my house.

When i got home of course today of all days the results weren't in yet...I checked the portal again and again and after the last time it wasn't there 2 secs later the phone rang and it was Sheila. She said my results looked fine!! Again WTF?? My E2 went from 300 to 759, P4 went from 4.3 to 5.6 and the LH decreased to 15.63. So i'm not sure what the hell happened. I am to continue on until Monday and then we'll know for sure. It still may be cancelled at this point. I am to hope for the best...yeah easier said than done....

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

So today is the day to be thankful for things that you do have instead of things you don't so here goes

1) I am thankful for my health even though my body is resisting getting pregnant it has been good to me and is taking care of me. I'm thankful for my husbands health as well.

2) My husband. He is the best friend i've ever had. He is always there and i will never take that for granted. We have thankfully become closer due to our 4 yr struggle to complete our family. He always tells me that he is happy with his life and will still be happy with our life even without a baby. Deep down inside i know that he really wants children but doesn't want to pressure me or make me feel bad that it's not happening. He is my soul mate & i love him with all of my heart

3) Our families health & support.

4) Our house.We have a very large mortgage on this house but we love it and as long as we have the money we don't mind paying for it. It is so cozy and inviting and sits on a beautiful 5 acre lot. We are very blessed to have such a nice house.

5) Our jobs. With so many people getting laid off we are both very thankful we have jobs even though sometimes they suck.

6) My little dog Toby and our kitties Samson & Delilah. They are a blessing to come home too and i am grateful for their health.

7) I am very thankful to the soldiers that keep us safe. They are the true heros.

8) I am thankful for the support from women i don't even know that come to my blog and post sincere wishes for our dream to come true and for the bump. A board i frequent everyday that offers sooooo much support & knowledge to me & are the only ones that truly understand what a hard journey infertility is. Thank you ladies and i love you all!

Overall i am just thankful for everything in my life and i hope someday i can add a baby to this list for next year.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!

2nd follie check

My appt went well this morning but a little funny i had to tell you. There was this couple sitting next to me on the very comfortable couch. The man was kind of gross. His hair didn't look washed and his big belly was hanging out of his shirt. Well all of a sudden i hear this roar!! I was like WTF? I turned to look and it was him!! He was snoring up a storm and his wife wasn't nudging him at all..she just let him. All of the people in the waiting room was in shock. lol..a new patient came in and was making her coffee and he let out another huge snore and she turned to look in his direction and you could tell she was disgusted hahaha.. finally the wife got called up to go have her massage or whatever and he was going to wait in the waiting room for her but she made him come (another waiting room upstairs for the spa) thank goodness. BUT then i was like shit! He's going to be up there when i go do my acupuncture!! Ugh...anyway i get called in and the nurse & I had a good laugh as I guess they all could hear him as well.

Follie check: still 3-4 on my left and 7-8 on my right. She didn't measure them AGAIN so i don't even know what size they are but apparently they are all still small and still growing at the same rate which is good.

So i go upstairs for my acupuncture and there he is. Sprawled out in front of the fire with the belly hangin out an snoring louder!! I was like great. I get undressed and get my robe on and go sit in there to wait for my paperwork. He was so loud! 2 other clients came in and they were all in shock as well. Now this is about 1.5 hours from the time i saw him in the waiting room downstairs. I get called for my appt and I have to say If i wasn't doing fertility treatments i prob wouldn't do it again. yes it was relaxing but i didn't feel any different afterwards...she put like 20 needles in my stomach, one in my chest, forehead, ear and top of head. Left me for like 25 mins and took them out. That was it..I will do another one on friday as i bought a pkg. I come out 40 mins later and he's still there sleeping. This time his wife is there...reading a magazine. He's still snoring away. Ew..he was just gross.

Bloodwork results: My E2 is 300, LH 19.76, P2 4.3 & lining 8.68 I was scared about the LH but talked to a nurse and she snipply said if it was a problem we would have called you. Whatever biotch. Usually they are very nice there but i've never talked to that one before.

So until Friday.....

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!

2nd follie check tomorrow

I am so nervous about this one. I got a response back from my dr and my nurse about doing the flare protocol. They both said they have been having success with quality and quantity on this protocol and that my meds may change on this appt. So i'll be glad to get tomorrow over with and to treat myself, my very first acupuncture session. I'm so excited about that! It'll help the 1.5 hour drive i have home. The drive actually wasn't that bad actually. My mind was wondering the whole way home wondering what my fsh was...when i got the news i was devastated. But the nurse said today that my fsh is fine and not to worry about it..so i am taking her advice and i am not going to worry about it!

So I hope tomorrow will bring good news...wish me luck!!

3 shots down

And tonight i got really sick to my stomach for like 20 mins. My right ovary is crampy but that's ok...i'm hoping thats a good thing.

Crabbiness has already set in as well. This cycle feels so different. I'm not sure why as it's the same dosage i was on for iui but i do feel different. I felt crampiness early on, crabbiness and now nausea.

Wednesday will be my first u/s after 4 nights of stims. I'm going to ask them if i'll be taking anything else like ganerilex (spelling?) or anything else. Since i'm doing the grant they only gave me my follistim and lupron. nothing else. I'll ask more questions when i go on wed. Oh and my first acupuncture appt is wed as well! Can't wait to do this. I really need something to help relax me.

Until Wed..hope you ladies are having a good week!