1st u/s after starting meds

Well....I have only 3 at this time. I was hoping for more. I am a little disappointed. Plus my dr wanted me to come back tomorrow and i'm thinking here we go again....so i questioned her this time and she said she didn't want me going 3 days without being monitored. Ugh...BUT she called at 3:30 and advised that she is upping my meds to 3 bravelle/1 menopur & I don't have to go back until monday!! So i was extremely happy for that! Yippee bring on more follies!!!!!

3 shots down....

I haven't been very good with mixing these damn things. I always end up with less liquid in the syringe. I know it's supposed to be a little less as the powder is absorbing some of it but geez!!! I guess i'll find out tomorrow if it's working. This is the u/s I am supposed to have!! I went on wednesday just as she said. I woke up feeling miserable as I have a cold. I dragged my ass out of bed & drove 1hour and 10 mins. Got stuck in traffic but finally made it there. I got my b/w, emptied my bladder got undressed and waited for the dr. She in and said oh? as in it's too early!!! I F'n knew it!! She said she's sorry but she's not doing an u/s as it's too early. I was soooo upset. I got up front she told me i can basically take anything for my cold as this point & be careful mixing the meds. I said thanks and walked out slamming the door. When i got the elevator I just cried. I felt so horrible and the ride was for nothing. I called my dh and he calmed me down and said it was an honest mistake and not to worry about it. AND to remember it's all about how she treats us medically. We like how she is going to be more aggressive than our last RE. Basically don't worry about any of the fluff stuff and concentrate on how she is medicating me. I posted it and a friend of mine (Happytracy) said the same thing. Thanks Tracy!!

So tomorrow is my first u/s since starting the meds and I am excited to see if it's working and to see what the dr decides to do. I hope to god she at least knows what's she's doing with my meds. I am only giving her one IUI cycle and then I'll move on. Here's to praying for lots of follies (but not too many) LOL

Did my first bravelle/menopur shot

Boy was i nervous. Dh was supposed to be home to help me but unfortunately he is stuck at work until midnight!! So i watched the video and then i watched it again when i was mixing it all together. Of course I freaked out because you start out with 1cc of diluant and by the time you are done you have less than 1cc. So i was worried I didn't use enough!! But the girls on the bump helped me and told me this is normal. THANK GOODNESS!! The shot hurt a little. Not too much. The spot where i shot myself up is red but other than it went well. So day one down!!

On more good news my sister is coming over from Ireland with my neice Molly and nephew Oliver for 2 1/2 weeks!!! I'm so excited. i hope I have good news for them. I went over to Ireland and my sister told me she was preg with Molly so she's hoping to hear it face to face from me when she comes over.

Going in on Wednesday for first u/s which i think is too early but whatever...at least she's monitoring me better than the last place.

Praying for nice healthy follicles!!!

My Cyst is gone!! My Cyst is gone!!

Yippee!!!!! So i went into got my blood drawn got undressed and in came my dr and........a new girl?? I was confused. She said she's training to do u/s and she'll be doing yours today. I was like what???????? But whatever...it doesn't really count today anyway. So..........it was the WORST u/s I have ever had and i've had so many. She may as well have stuck the vag cam in sideways. I yelped in pain and said that it hurt the new girl i'm sorry. BUT she didn't stop hurting me!! I was like what the FECK are you trying to look at my tonsils???? So she tells me that the cyst is gone. So now i'm happy again. Then she moved to the right ovary which has been sensitive lately...again I was in alot of pain. The RE said are you alright and I no i'm not it really hurts. I was never so happy to have it over with. Then in the office the girl says this is like an interview for me to see if i'm going to work here. I felt like saying if she goes by mine you won't be working here!! She did however say she'll only be doing u/s when the dr is out of the office. So that made me happy. She then told me i had to get pricked again as there were a few things she wanted to test me for. So it was just a disaster overall. Anyway...i am starting meds on Monday and will go in wed for a u/s & bw. She told me she's going to be more aggressive and try to get more follies than i've had which is 4. We have discussed selective reduction and have agreed to reduce if there is anything over 3. So i'm guessing she's going to try to get 5-6 follies. Its ok by me. I mean i've been exposed to so many follies over the past year and it hasn't worked so the more the merrier. I just hope we don't have to think about reduction. So onto a nice blissful med free weekend before it all goes down. It's going to work i just know it!!!

Ok is this it for me?

Why do i have this feeling I'm going to be preg soon? I have had it for the last month. I'm not sure why and I sometimes wish I didn't feel this way but I am talking like I am preg already!! I am no longer afraid to talk about the future and being a parent. As I said I talk like i am preg already. dh and I were talking about going to ireland to visit my family next year and he said it depends on how old the baby is. I said yeah, we could prob go when the baby is 2 mos or so. If not then we'll wait until the fall to go that way the baby will be older. I was checking out my closet this morning for something to wear and I saw a shirt that i said I could wear when i'm preg. Then I started looking for other clothes I could wear and came up with quite a few items. I didn't stop myself!!! Is this intuition or am I setting myself up for disappointment. I am very positive this time around so maybe that's it.

Cyst is still there

It's smaller but it's still there. My RE said she'll check the e2 levels and if they are around 60 then we can start. I was excited about this...BUT i got the phone call that my e2 is still elevated so I have to stay on bcp for another week!!!! I was disappointed but whatever. She didn't leave the #. I always want this but this time i decided not to care. She told me to call back to make the appt. So I did. i figured i'd ask if someone picked up but i got the voicemail message so I left a msg that i'll see them next friday at 8am. I was so proud of myself for saying F it and care. It's not going to change anything so why worry about it. When I got back to my desk I called dh and he was worried that we couldn't do it at all this month. I think when I go back it'll be gone and i can start. So of course i looked up to see when i might start if that's the case and it looks like it may be mothers day or at least around that day!!! So i'm hoping that's a good sign. I'm not putting much into it because I don't want to get my hopes up based on that. I do feel like this cycle will be the one though. Don't know why...just do.

Turned off my music

It was driving me crazy as i was reading blogs from my fellow nesties...so it's now off.

Could be the bcp as i haven't been in the best of moods the last 2-3 days. I'm almost depressed. My moods are going up and down and I hate it. Hoping to go tomorrow & see no cyst and have the dr tell me i can go ahead and start my meds. I have a feeling my bfp is coming soon. I am convinced of that. New RE, New meds, new protocol, dh is taking fertilaid for the last 2 mos. I just can't wait to get started on iui #4. Please god give me my miracle. I think i have suffered through this long enough.