Should I, Shouldn't I?

Yesterday i found out that my FSH was high (13.5) I was so disappointed that I had a bad attitude about even doing the shots. My RE said to go ahead with them but didn't sound very optimistic so that's what started my bad attitude....So I started follistim last night. My MIL came to do the first one as she is a nurse. It didn't hurt at all but it stung afterwards. I didn't even care. I thought I was going to be nervous but I honestly didn't give 2 craps if it hurt or not. I was just like whatever it's not going to work anyway. Tonight I found out my SIL is having a boy. My dh wants the first girl of the family as so far there are only 3 boys...SIL was saying it's a girl its a girl its a girl blah blah blah so that made me sad for my DH. After we found out she was having a boy it rejuvenated something in both of us. My DH was no longer nervous about giving me my shot and i was actually excited to be getting it. It hurt a tiny bit going in but didn't sting afterwards. So now we just pray that it works..IUI is scheduled for next week so we'll see...

AF is here..

damn it all to heck...oh well I am lucky it came at around 1am last night well into the bachelorette party. So I guess It came today then right? I will go in on Monday for my baseline and then start the shots that night (I think-not sure what time of day they are taken, I think night)

All night I was worried that maybe i was pg so I had one glass of wine and that was it. I'm glad though as alot of the girls got really drunk and one got sick. It was so much fun and the bride to be had a great time.

Ok well I hope next cycle is the one. I feel like it has to happen at some point. i just hope it's soon. I'm sprinkling loads of baby dust on myself and sending some out to the universe for all of my nesties. GL to everyone for a BFP cycle!!

AF still not here...

I hate my body right now. I tested again this am and it was Negative..I usually get AF right on time on day 27 or 28..this is day 28 but it's still not here and the day is almost over. I'm glad that it didn't come yesterday because on day 3 when I'm supposed to start meds it would have been friday and I had the bachelorette party that night. I was sooooo worried that i'd have to do my first shot in a bar!! Now i'm worried that my whole cycle of meds will be set back if I get my period tomorrow but they can't take me in to do the baseline and day 3 will be sunday..if i don't have my baseline I can't start my meds...this blows. I just hope AF comes tonight so I can call them in the am and get an appt. I mean don't get me wrong..i'd be happy if it didn't come at all but i tested negative so therefore i feel that I am def not pg...

Stay away!!!

I have AF cramps today..she's due tomorrow. I just can't believe it. This sucks. I was so hoping to not have to do the injectables. I'm so sad today. Why can't I get pg? It just doesn't seem fair. I have nothing wrong with me and there is nothing wrong with my dh either. I just don't understand it. I'm hoping my cm is killing his sperm and we just don't know it yet...or due to having 2 leeps the scar tissue isn't allowing enough sperm in ..the IUI will surpass both of these...I mean besides having a borderline fsh (9.2) there isn't anything wrong...so upsetting. Arghh I'm just ready to move on so AF if you are coming get on with it...

Why is my body playing tricks on me??

For the last few days I have felt like I was pg. I'm not on anything so I thought IT WORKED!! Well today I don't feel anything..I don't even feel sick at all....my AF is due wed or thurs so I guess we'll see but I can't beleive I no longer have that deep down feeling...It's soooo not fair!!!

morning sickness?

This sounds so wierd but for the past couple days I have been feeling nauseous of an on. Last night before bed i felt awful. This am when i woke i felt awful again. Like I was going to throw up but didn't...yesterday I also had a pain in my left ovary..felt like it was burning. A friend at work said that's how she felt when she got pg with both of her kids. I didn't really think much of it..i'm sure it could be phantom but i'm not usually like that. I have no other symptoms at all. I am a few days away from getting my AF but is it crazy that i feel pg? I feel like it just might have worked this month. It's prob wishful thinking...but i have this deep down feeling..AF not due until wed so we'll see. I'm sprinkling Baby dust over my head!!!

My meds are here!! YIPPEEE!!!!

So happy that they are here. WOW its getting close to having to prick myself with a needle..I'm so nervous. I am kind of hoping that I don't need them though. I have been feeling sickly during the day but have no other symptoms. I'm not sure what to think of it...so I just don't..I don't say anything to anyone about it. I feel like if I said it out loud it'll not come true. I'm am just keeping my mind occupied and now that the meds are here i'm getting excited about doing them if it's not meant to be this month. So...now the waiting for AF to show. According to my records it should be here next wed..i'm hoping it comes on thurs though cuz i have a bachelorette party that i am throwing for a friend of mine on the 12th and I don't want my first shot to be in a bar!!!