Should I, Shouldn't I?

Yesterday i found out that my FSH was high (13.5) I was so disappointed that I had a bad attitude about even doing the shots. My RE said to go ahead with them but didn't sound very optimistic so that's what started my bad attitude....So I started follistim last night. My MIL came to do the first one as she is a nurse. It didn't hurt at all but it stung afterwards. I didn't even care. I thought I was going to be nervous but I honestly didn't give 2 craps if it hurt or not. I was just like whatever it's not going to work anyway. Tonight I found out my SIL is having a boy. My dh wants the first girl of the family as so far there are only 3 boys...SIL was saying it's a girl its a girl its a girl blah blah blah so that made me sad for my DH. After we found out she was having a boy it rejuvenated something in both of us. My DH was no longer nervous about giving me my shot and i was actually excited to be getting it. It hurt a tiny bit going in but didn't sting afterwards. So now we just pray that it works..IUI is scheduled for next week so we'll see...